Although it’s a bit late, I’m still gonna write about what had happened in 2017.
So in the future, I can look back and see how much I had grown.
Well, now I realize why people should write a journal. Cause we are vulnerable human being that will forget things.
I kick started my 2017 with an amazing trip to 7 cities in one day! Course! With an amazing person too!
Farid took me to Taman Bunga Nusantara, a place that I’ve been wanting to visit since I was kid. Iya, dulu pas SD saya ngga pernah ada acara karyawisata yang ke taman bunga 😦
Kami berdua kesana naik motor, melintasi 7 kota selama perjalanan. I was so happy at that time. To see a lot of flowers and greeneries all around me made me feel soooo good!
In February, so far that I could remember, I was workin my azz off days and nights to prepare myself for IELTS test in March. It was one of the most intense time after not “studying” for a long time! But it felt good somehow to know that I can still push myself to my limit.
Hard work paid off! Got 7.0 for my overall IELTS score! Yeaaahh! But beside that, I don’t really remember what had happened in March, I’m sorry! I guess I just let myself had some rest after hard work >.<
Glad that I checked one of my bucket lists in April. I’ve always wanted to go to Adhitia Sofyan’s and Andien’s gig. But since I don’t really like crowds, a close and intimate performance at a cafe is a perfect definition of a ‘gig’ for me. Aaand there it happened!
Bukalapak, one of the biggest online marketplace in Indonesia made an event in a cafe in Jakarta. And yess, yesss, yeessss I can watch Adhitia Sofyan’s and Andien’s performance just like what I wanted!
It may not seem so special, but somehow, I enjoy this moment. In May, I had a business trip to Bandung, it was only two or three days. One day after I finished my jobs, I visited my ex-office, Global Learning Education Centre. I used to teach English here, I had a lot of good times with my students. I also learn a lot from them.
At that night, I wanted to eat in a nearby restaurant. So I walked outside, but nothing seems interesting. I kept walking until I realized that I had walked so far. Seriously, it was far. I really enjoy it, walking alone at night in a city where I fall in love. I fell in love with so many things in this city, that I feel like it was my home. Yep, it is indeed my home.
This is a remarkable month for me. Why?
Because in June, I can finally forgive myself. I can finally forgive my parents. I can finally forgive life and fate. I can finally accept whatever life has given to me. And do you know how did it feel? IT FELT GOOOOOOD. SO. DAMN. GOOD.
In June, I also try to follow the movement of #indonesia6am. The objective is to show the world how beautiful Indonesia is in 6 am. And yes, even my neighborhood looks damn amazing in 6 am!
Selain itu, dengan niat menjalani ritual tahunan, saya, Ucup dan Britan jalan-jalan bareng untuk menikmati jalanan Jakarta yang sepi sambil hunting-hunting foto. Kalo lagi bareng mereka mah mustahil ngga ngakak!
Was the month when I suddenly feel so lonely. Although I can see there are a lot of people around me, I still feel so alone. I still don’t know why I felt that way. But I also felt like I’d enjoy solitude more than before. I crave for being alone but didn’t want to feel lonely. I thought I slowly shifting to become an introvert. But I guess it’s a turning point for me, where I finally realize that I haven’t found my purpose of life. I haven’t known the meaning of my life. And on that point, I push myself to look harder and keep questioning.
This is a roller coaster hell of a month! First, I got rejected by LPDP scholarship. Then I got a free trip to Pahawang Island, and witness the most beautiful sunset in my life so far. Life is full of surprises, so I guess I really just have to accept whatever it will give me, right?
In this month also, I learned to overcome my fears. I went snorkeling without a life jacket for the first time. I really swam in the middle of the sea. I learned to control myself, my fear, and my mind in my uncomfortable zone. I can say that I am proud of my self.
A lot of things happen in my special month!
First, I went to World of Ghibli Jakarta to fulfil my dream of hugging giant Totoro XD. It was like a dream come true!
And shortly after my birthday, I flew to Japan (also to fulfil my dream) with my friends Shaby and Ikhsan. It was wonderful! It feels like a miracle to finally be able to go there. We’ve been dreaming visit Japan since we were in Junior High School and it came true! Definitely want to go to Japan again soon!
It is also a month of consciousness. It felt great to realize that I should search for what I am passionate about. It is never too late to start, it is a good start to realize.
Upon returning from Japan, me and three of my crazy friends made a crazy trip to Malaysia. ONLY TO VISIT ONE PIECE EXHIBITION. Yes, you read it right. But sadly we were not allowed to take pictures in the exhibition, so we only took it in front of the room XD. We also visited Batu Caves and some places in Malaysia, and we had so much fun!
Another crazy gang took me to Jogja this month. We had another crazy trip, one that we won’t forget. I really really feel like I found another side of myself when I travel with them. We talked a lot about things, we ate a lot, we took a lot of photographs and we laughed a lot more! Thanks, guys!
Another crazy month for me. I was able to fulfil my dream (again) to go to 0 km of Indonesia: Sabang. Yesssss!!! How lucky I am! It was actually for work, but who cares! I got to go there anyway (and for free :p) It was a truly magical experience to travel to Banda Aceh and Sabang, ALONE. I cried a tear of happiness when I stepped here. I got a lot of life lesson here.
In this month, one of my best friend got married to one of my crazy travelling gang. What a perfect combination. So we travelled to Jogja to attend their wedding. It was one of the happiest moment I shared with my friends and loved ones.
A lot of beautiful things also happened in this month. From a contemplation to a long meaningful walk and talk. What a time well-spent.
The end of the year marked by having peaceful time for myself, spending time with family, friends, and my loved ones. I am really grateful that Allah still gives me chances after chances to live. To experience so many beautiful things and to be able to share it with people around me. I hope the next year I will be a better version of myself, to re-discover myself and my purpose of life. To make this one life more meaningful, for me and the others. Aamiin.